Some people will feel bad for hurting you and will actually miss you a little but that is the most your going to get. Your lucky if they even care at all. A good majority of these bullshit people will convince themselves that they are right for breaking your heart because you are a bad person. They will use things to justify their actions like something fucked up you did when you first met them. They will go above and beyond to make you feel like you are a piece of shit and nobody will ever want you. Like everything is all your fault and that is how they stand to look at their faces in the mirror before they go out to pursue their next “victim”.

Please do not feel bad about yourself when this happens. You have to understand its not your fault, they are just like that. They have done it to people in the past and will continue to do it for as long as it takes them to (if ever) realize what love really is. Yea your going to be sad no matter what but just know that person will never be truly happy with anyone because they have no concept of what they want. They want a chase and when that is over they are lost. The funny thing is they don’t even know that.

They are actually kind of sad when you think about it. I mean could you imagine having no standards and nothing that you looked for in a person outside of the way they look. So you would just constantly be adapting to fit the personality of the person you were with. That sucks.

So be sad but you will get over it and it is for the best. In the long run you will be happier with a real person. Your really not losing anything because chances are they were treating you like shit for a while before it was over. I bet you were thinking they were going to go back to the way they were. Nope it would never happen. Why? Because that was not who they were that was them adapting like a fucking lizard or some shit. They were doing that because they really wanted you to be a part of their life. Then like I said once they had you they got bored and probably pretty exhausted with being such a fake ass lame.

Now can you see why I would say that they are sad? I mean I personally feel like I am too cool for all that bullshit. Look at it like this if you stayed with them you wouldn’t have been happy at all but since it is over you know eventually you will be over it, back to your old self, and happy. You will also meet someone who is really perfect for you and is pretending to be.

So think about that before you go running back to a loser. If you are in a relationship with a person who may be like what I have just described. Go with your instinct and get out now. Nothing good will come of it. Take that shit as a lesson and in the future if you even think someone you are talking to might be that way, tell their ass to kick rocks.

I can honestly say that this is the sexiest man I have ever seen. Not the actor but the character he played in the Twilight movies. Yes he is very physically attractive but that’s not what really makes you want him. Its the way he acts. The way he treats Bella. The fact that he has absolutely flawless swag. That is how all men should act. Unfortunately its not. Not even close. It would be nice to meet a guy who had half the qualities of Edward Cullen. LMFAO. 

Okay so this guy got got my aim user name from this website back in 2005. Then he hit me up with this shit. I had this posted on my MySpace blog ever since. I mean it is fucking hilarious so I decided to put it on here. I am ASHLEYNICOLE by the way lol….

 big steve0: hey sweeti

big steve0: how r u?

ASHLEYNICOLE: good

big steve0: u are verybeautifull

ASHLEYNICOLE: u gotta pic

big steve0: yes

big steve0: its bigsteve on there

ASHLEYNICOLE: send on through here

big steve0 wants to directly connect.

big steve0 is now directly connected.

big steve0:

big steve0:

ASHLEYNICOLE: cute

big steve0: ty

big steve0: so what uup 2?

ASHLEYNICOLE: notmuch

big steve0: whats ur favorite color?

ASHLEYNICOLE: ?

ASHLEYNICOLE: y

big steve0: minei s green cuz it has to do with this fantasy i have

ASHLEYNICOLE: great

big steve0: have u seen Superman?

ASHLEYNICOLE: yes

ASHLEYNICOLE: y

big steve0: do u no what his weakness is?

ASHLEYNICOLE: what

big steve0: its kryptonite (that green glowing rock)

ASHLEYNICOLE: yea

ASHLEYNICOLE: ssssssooooooooo

big steve0: well i want a girl to pretend im Superman and weaken me with kryptonite (Play a sexy evil villin and lead me into a trap)

ASHLEYNICOLE: ok

big steve0: would u weaken me with kryptonite?

ASHLEYNICOLE: um i guess

big steve0: can i pretend u sent me a present and inside is the kryptonite?

ASHLEYNICOLE: yea

big steve0: do u wanna no how it works on me?

ASHLEYNICOLE: yea

ASHLEYNICOLE: how

big steve0: well its a green glowing rock and led protects me from its effects and if i get near it i will get very weak and light headed and dizzy and the longer and closer i am to it the weaker and weaker i will get and u will be able to do anythingu want with me and the more of it there is the faster i will weaken

ASHLEYNICOLE: so i guess i should bring alot

big steve0: what evil villin would u be?

ASHLEYNICOLE: uuuuuummmmmmmm  the joker

big steve0: how bout the joker’s girl

ASHLEYNICOLE: ok

ASHLEYNICOLE: so what do i do

big steve0: well Joker’s girl this is Superman *flys into ur hideout* i heard uwanted to see me *stands across the room from u with my arms crossed looking at u * is that true jokers girl?

ASHLEYNICOLE: yes it is

big steve0: what did u want to see ma bout joker’s girl?

ASHLEYNICOLE: i needd ur help superman

big steve0: what did u need my help with?

ASHLEYNICOLE: um hey i dont know what to say next

big steve0: lead me into a room with u and tell me u have a present for me

big steve0: and when i see it i tell u to open it for me cuz i dont trust u

ASHLEYNICOLE: ok

ASHLEYNICOLE: what now

big steve0: so u come up close and ask me if im ready and then u open it and grin and ask me if it lloks familer and tell me what it is and that its weakening me and laugh and when i go to my knees say that it weaken for me Superman

ASHLEYNICOLE: ok

big steve0: and then when i say please get it away from me or i’ll die laugh and say thats the idea sweatheart and tell me to weaken for u and say it will all be over really soon and say nighty night Superman

big steve0: ok do it something like that

ASHLEYNICOLE: um r u foreal?

big steve0: so we’re back at the part where u said u needed my help with something

big steve0: yes

big steve0: what did u need my help with joker’s girl?

ASHLEYNICOLE: lets just start from where you said what happened

ASHLEYNICOLE: ok

big steve0: ok

ASHLEYNICOLE: r u mad

big steve0: no

ASHLEYNICOLE: cool

big steve0: ok so what is it u needed my help with joker’s girl?

ASHLEYNICOLE: nnnnnnnnnnoooooooo

ASHLEYNICOLE: u already said this part

big steve0: ok u want me to follow u into the other room?

ASHLEYNICOLE: u said that too

big steve0: i no im supposed to follow u into the room

big steve0: i didnt do that yet

ASHLEYNICOLE: um you said u allready did

ASHLEYNICOLE: wtf

big steve0: i meant thats how to do it

big steve0: ok lets start from being in the room already and start by saying i have a present for u and go from there

ASHLEYNICOLE: ok

ASHLEYNICOLE: um i have a present 4 you  spiderman

big steve0: im Superman a present for me *laughs u must be joking!

ASHLEYNICOLE: no i really do

big steve0: how can i be sure this isnt a trick joker’s girl?

ASHLEYNICOLE: caz it aint

big steve0: y dont u open it just so i no this isnt a trick?

ASHLEYNICOLE: caz its your fuckin present jackass

big steve0: well how bout i hold it while u open it?

ASHLEYNICOLE: oh what the fuck man

ASHLEYNICOLE: what kind of fantasy is this

ASHLEYNICOLE: are you foreal

big steve0: yes ur supposed to open it

big steve0: and then do like i said

ASHLEYNICOLE: i mean you are draggin the whole present thing out dont ya think

ASHLEYNICOLE: omg

ASHLEYNICOLE: ok spiderman im opening it with you

ASHLEYNICOLE: eeeeeeeerrrrrrrr

big steve0: ok

big steve0: *suddenly begins to feel weak*

big steve0: *backs away*

ASHLEYNICOLE: hahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahaha

ASHLEYNICOLE: cat women wins again

ASHLEYNICOLE: bia

big steve0: OooOoOOoOoOooOo catwomen what is this? whats going on? *backs away stumbling* OooOOooOoOooOOOOooO

ASHLEYNICOLE: im rich bitch

ASHLEYNICOLE: um yea u r crazy

big steve0: catwomen what is that whats happening to me? OooOOoooOooOOo *slowly goes to my knees*

ASHLEYNICOLE: wtf is wrong with you

ASHLEYNICOLE: u have got to be jokin
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big steve0: ask me if it lloks familer and tell me what it is and that its weakening me and laugh and when i go to my knees say that it weaken for me Superman

ASHLEYNICOLE: no

ASHLEYNICOLE: hellno man

ASHLEYNICOLE: this is retarded

ASHLEYNICOLE: anyways im bout to go caz u have issues

ASHLEYNICOLE: peace up atown down

The thing is here lately I have really been wanting to just go all out. You know just tell everyone about their asses. I feel like I am constantly being the bigger person while everyone else just does whatever the fuck they want. So I was telling my friend that I am going to start simply saying fuck you to everyone who pisses me off.

The smartass at the fast food place who damn near throws your bag at you and then slams the window. Then you check it and of course they fucked your order up. So you got to sit there like a jackass and knock on the window forever. Only for them to snatch your bag and roll their eyes. Still you say nothing because they are making your food and you just want to get home, eat, and chill out. Nope next time I am going to say fuck you bitch give me my money back I am going somewhere else.

Bill collectors who tell you to borrow money to pay for a car that you paid two times the amount it was worth already. Plus it broke down completely so you could barely get to work and they took the mothafucker back anyways. Fuck you.

That smug ass person interviewing you for a job. Yea fuck you too.

The electric company. Fuck ‘em.

Lying ass politicians. Fuck all ya’ll.

The perverted ass old man checking you out while his wife’s head is turned. Fuuuucccckkkk  yoooooouu.

I just want to mouth that shit like they did on observe and report. Not even make a sound just just mouth fuck you to everyone who cuts you off. They will see you caz everyone always looks in their review when they cut someone off to see the other persons reaction. I want them to look right as I am saying the words fuck you. LmFaO.

I mean is it just me or would that not feel so good. Matter of fact I am going to start right now. All these bullshit spam emails I get…. Yep I am going to fuck with them like they do me. Everyday I am going to send them an email in big bold letters saying FUCK YOU. I suggest you all do the same. I mean just to the spam emails not all that other shit. I am probably not going to do any of this but it feels good to talk about it. Seriously though if you read this send an email to the spammers saying fuck you. Maybe we can give them a taste of their own medicine. Shit can I sell their info to someone? Okay that’s another subject.

So anyway am I the only one who feels this way? Of course not.

I have grown up a lot since all that though. I have been unemployed for over a year now and I have been looking the entire time. I have completely learned my lesson and by no means am I being picky. I have applied to hundreds of places and had about four interviews. Those interviews consisted of Office Depot, Goodyear, Advance America, and Sam’s Club. Office Depot was half good and half bad (long story), Goodyear went really well so I thought, and the other two went well for me but the person giving the interview had some technical difficulties. Still none of them felt like I was a good candidate. These are jobs that I could have done with no problems what so ever.

So why didn’t they hire me?

Who fucking knows. I don’t think they even know. All I know is I am tired of this shit. The applications are getting longer and they are followed by two hundred random questions and they think they are so smart but any idiot can see they are just asking you the same thing over and over in different ways. You get about fifty questions to see what your views are on stealing, fifty more to find out if your going to beat someone’s ass while your at work. The other hundred is divided between how well you adapt to change, how much your going to have to ask for help, what your attendance has been in the past, and some other bullshit. I don’t know about anyone else but I lie my ass of on those things. I have lied about lying on one of them.

What fucking genius assholes decided that this was a good way to find out about what kind of person you are. They have to know better. Just about everyone has stole something or hung out with someone who stole something. Yet if you are honest about that they assume you are a thief who is going to back a U-Haul up to the back doors of their company and steal all the merchandise, cash, and office supplies they have. I guess they want dishonest liars to work for them because the only way your going to look good is if you completely lie on all of them questions. Even the interview process shows they want you to lie to them.

It is one thing if you are going for your dream job or even a descent position with advancement opportunities but WTF do they really expect you to say when Wal-Mart ask you why you want to be a front end cashier through the holiday season. Well Because I am broke bitch and I don’t want to look like a cheapskate this Christmas. Or I am fucking starving and we are about to get evicted. That would be a couple of honest replies but then you probably wouldn’t get the job. So you have to lie.

You already have beef with Wal-Mart because you feel like its their fault for your financial situation. Seeing how over the years you have dropped over half of your income right into their wallets. Yet you swallow any pride you have left and with a straight face make up the biggest crock of shit ever.  That’s it your full of shit and they know it and you know it. Now you feel stupid for being so phony and the tired ass bitch (who takes her job way too seriously) interviewing you seems pleased.

At this point you are resenting the company, her, the shitty stuff you bought from them, your parents for not being rich, the ninety year old woman who greeted you at the door, but mostly yourself. Then she says we’ll call you. All that’s going through you head is the gas money you spent to get there and how you could have bought some food or cigarettes with it. Still you smile, shake her hand, and walk out with your head up high.

That is until you get to the car and we all no what goes on in there. Talking to yourself, cussing that bitch out, road rage, loud music, possible crying, debating on when and if you should call them if they don’t call you, debating on calling them right then and saying just give it to me straight, wondering if you should have asked for them to reimburse your gas money(not that they would), then you try to stay positive and calm yourself down. All for nothing because they didn’t call and neither did you.

Anyway I know I got a little carried away but I am just so fucking frustrated with the whole process but I am goanna stop here for now. I am going to check out careerbuilder LOL. Later.